If you can’t see God….look harder

Last week I had yet another appointment in Rochester.  It was a rainy, gloomy drive up and it was still cold and damp when I returned to my car following the appointment.  My mood didn’t lighten the atmosphere, but instead weighted the cloud that seemed to be looming over my head.  I was moping and feeling sorry for myself because the results were not what I wanted to hear.  I’m not going to get into the details of my appointment because I’m not really ready to talk about it, but that’s not the point of this post anyway.

I had made plans with my cousin, who lives in Rochester, for a visit after my appointment so I headed to her house.  As she tends to do, she and her two beautiful boys brightened my spirits and we had a wonderful and long overdue visit.  My cousin is one of the few people that I have felt could relate to me in so many ways since we were young.  She is level headed and has a strong faith in God and she is strong willed and stands firm on her beliefs.  I admire that her decisions might now always be the popular ones, but she stands firm and is true to her heart and to God.  Spending time with her after my appointment was just my first gift from God that day.

After a couple hours of visiting, I climbed back into my car for the hour and a half(ish) drive home.  Alone in my car, I was still thinking about my appointment and running things through my head.  My mood was still pretty gloomy like the weather had been all morning.  I was just above the town of Avon on the highway when I noticed the sky ahead.  I have always loved the giant flag that waves next to the highway at the car dealership on that stretch of road but this day was even better.  The flag was blowing just enough to watch it ripple with the most beautiful sunset glowing behind it.  There were the most amazing tones of red and pink and the flag just seemed to lay across that blanket of colors.  As I drove towards the sunset, a favorite song started playing from my radio.  The song is called “Find Your Wings”.  As the lyrics, “I’m here for you whatever this life brings, so let my love give you roots and help you find your wings” played through the speakers a flock of geese soared next to my car on one side with the sunset still in front.  I turned my head to the other side just as another flock of geese seemed to be traveling with me on that side as well.  The speakers sang, “may conviction keep you strong, guide you on your way”.  At this point I felt so overwhelmed that I had tears streaming down my face.  I needed God to remind me that I was still living and that He was still with me.  He painted me the most beautiful scene to comfort me and through those tears I was smiling.  I will never understand those that say they don’t believe in God because they can’t see Him.  He’s in those sweet smiles from my cousin’s boys and the caring words she shared with me that afternoon.  He’s in the colors of the sunset and those perfectly positioned flocks of birds.  He’s in the lyrics of the song on the radio.  How do you not see that He is all the beauty in this life?  He’s there….maybe you just need to look harder:)